Having just seen Abi’s 16th birthday come and go, I realised it never gets easier. This is her fourth birthday in heaven. Abi’s 13th birthday was ten months after she died, in 2013. It felt unbearable. She was so looking forward to becoming a teenager, she’d already been thinking about what she might do. We hadContinueContinue reading “Remembering Abi on her 16th birthday “
Category Archives: Remembering Abigail
A letter to you on your sixteenth birthdayÂ
I pause before even writing a word as the thought of you turning 16 in heaven breaks my heart all over again. I’m sorry sweetheart. I know you are safe, I feel that, but I feel so lost without you near me. You’re the one who is safe, I’m the one running scared. My mindContinueContinue reading “A letter to you on your sixteenth birthday “
I should be organising your 16th birthday party
I’m at a loss. How do you ‘celebrate’ your child’s birthday when they are dead? I should be chasing around here and there, buying balloons, presents, sorting things out, baking an amazing cake. Instead I sit here and can only do these things in my head, while my stomach churns with longing and my eyesContinueContinue reading “I should be organising your 16th birthday party”
Abi’s Black Belt
On this day, two years ago, Abi fulfilled a four-year-long ambition… to earn her junior black belt in Kung Fu. She’d attended Chi Wai Academy twice a week for all those years, working solidly through her belts and badges. Rarely complaining. Always disciplined. Impressing us and her peers with her determination, skill and flexibility (touchingContinueContinue reading “Abi’s Black Belt”
Abi’s dragonflies
I’ve just been browsing an old computer file of Abi’s artwork… random stories, computer drawings and images saved over the years. How interesting to find a file called DRAGON FLYS. It was created on 9th February 2009 … wow … four years before Abi died. She would have been nine years old then. There’s noContinueContinue reading “Abi’s dragonflies”
Little reminders…
Despite having packed away most of Abi’s possessions (though some are to hand so that we can look at them when we want to), I’m still coming across little reminders of her. It’s often things that have been there so long, they’ve become part of our surroundings. It might be her old school PE bagContinueContinue reading “Little reminders…”
Sharing memories of Abi…
A month ago, our eldest daughter died. I still struggle to type those words, let alone comprehend them… Abigail’s story, however, is so inspiring and heartbreaking that it should be recorded for others to read and share. It may offer comfort to some, support to others, and therapy for me, who knows…? Abigail, our beautifulContinueContinue reading “Sharing memories of Abi…”
Chasing Dragonflies 