As per my post earlier this month, most people will understand that this time of year is very difficult for me and trying to cope with Christmas festivities without Abi is something I (and my family) have again had to bear and get through. New Year’s Eve is equally painful. I don’t even want toContinueContinue reading “As the sun sets on New Year’s Eve, I see hope for tomorrow”
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Coping with Christmas after the death of your child
I’m aware I’ve not written since Abi’s birthday, and there’s a reason. Like last year, I’ve found myself lost in a blur of grief and unable to write at all. It’s almost like there is so much to say that it’s impossible to write clearly. Sometimes I find that life is back in focus andContinueContinue reading “Coping with Christmas after the death of your child”
You are my sunshine – a birthday poem
My darling Abi, I recall you lying on your changing mat when you were a tiny baby Those early months just you and me while Daddy was at work Finding my feet with this miraculous little person Who had grown inside me for nine months I found I would sing ‘You are my sunshine’ toContinueContinue reading “You are my sunshine – a birthday poem”
I dreamt of you
In my morning sleep, the sleep before the day begins, I saw you Clear, real, here You were standing on the landing, in the doorway to our bedroom. From my bed, I talked to you Like I used to You up and ready for the day Me rousing from sleep You looked a year orContinueContinue reading “I dreamt of you”
The significance of memorial flowers
Today is Remembrance Day and war memorials all over the country are displaying poppy wreaths in memory of those who lost their lives serving our country. The Tower of London featured a magnificent and moving poppy tribute this year. It got me thinking about the symbolism of memorial flowers and what that means to meContinueContinue reading “The significance of memorial flowers”
Good grief! I had a facial
I used to enjoy booking myself in for an occasional massage or facial, it was always a nice treat, but since Abi died I’ve not been able to allow myself to do it. To relax is to let emotions come to the surface, to be able to meditate on the thoughts going through your mind,ContinueContinue reading “Good grief! I had a facial”
Celebration blues
I’ve not been blogging or networking much lately. I’ve been feeling run down, very low about Abi and generally snowed under with work and family life. I feel flat and pretty much overwhelmed as again we face more special occasions without our girl. It’s particularly busy this weekend as it was my hubby’s 40th birthdayContinueContinue reading “Celebration blues”
Word of the Week: Loss
It’s World Mental Health Day today, slap bang in the middle of Baby Loss Awareness Week. So I’ve been thinking of loss – physical loss, mental loss and biblical loss! Of losing three pregnancies in my life, of the little beans that I didn’t get to meet. Of little Bella who we thought would bringContinueContinue reading “Word of the Week: Loss”
The heartache of decluttering after my daughter diedÂ
Ever since I had children, I’ve been bagging up clothes and toys for either car boot sales or charity shops, although it always seems the more I ‘recycle’ the more ‘stuff’ comes back into the house! It’s been a long time since we did a car boot… I say ‘we’ as normally Abi and IContinueContinue reading “The heartache of decluttering after my daughter died “
Gravity and grief
Last night, we watched the Hollywood blockbuster, Gravity, for the first time. It’s been out for ages but as parents who (now) never get time out to go to the cinema, we have to wait until it’s shown on Sky Movies. We were hooked from the start, and both watched it to the end withoutContinueContinue reading “Gravity and grief”
Chasing Dragonflies 